Stressed, exhausted, and pissy
I was so excited for today because Sheena was coming over and it's Girls night and then she was going to spend the night cuz we have to watch the conclusion to the CSI Trilogy on top of the other shows we watch together. And then at 3 she texts me and is like I can't come because her brother and step dad decided today to go hunting and her mom and sister in law decided to go shopping so she has to watch her nephews. Now this doesn't seem like a reason to get annoyed really except she does shit like this all the time...tell your brother that if he decided last minute to go hunting then he needs to find someone else to watch the boys. UGH so the one thing I was looking forward to is not happening and plus I hate watching Thursday night shows alone because it has always been a group things or at least a me and Sheena thing *sigh* whatever I just needed to vent about it because it's just sitting inside me festering especially since she doesn't seem to realize it upsets me that she always bails on me *sigh* ugh ok I'm switching to a new subject I feel bad like all I ever do on this journal is bitch about mainly Sheena issues lol
Well I finally scheduled today I was suppose to do it last weekend but I was at home and procrastinated. My classes seem ok I'm a little nervous about some of them. But I have a class with Kelly :D so I won't be alone in one of them and we can help each other out ;) I only have class Tuesday and Thursdays from 9:30 until basically 5 with little breaks and a big break Tuesday since I have a lab on Thursday. I'm hoping since they are all in the buildings I won't have as much work. I do have one online class but that was because I seriously didn't want to go to class M/W/F for one dang class lol.
As for my HW this semester I'm behind again *sigh* I'm just exhausted and done. I'm stressed and really need a break *sigh* I feel like I could break down at any moment right now.....see this is why I need Thursday nights with Sheena to get my mind off all this crap and now she's not coming and that's adding to my stress and upset ughhhhhhhhhhh I really need to do that thing where you scream and release your emotions...but then I'm sure someone would call someone on campus lol
Well I have to go home tomorrow cuz I have another drs appointment *sigh* I'm so sick of going to the drs. But I need to figure out whats wrong with me and I'm knocking on wood because it seems like what they are trying is working...and I really hope it is because I do not want to go see a urologist and get poked and prodded *sigh* I also got put on anxiety medicine for that heart issue I talked about forever ago....there was absolutely nothing physically wrong with my heart so they think it's an anxiety issue and put me on really low dose anxiety medicine...except the low dose side effects is drowsiness and let me tell you they kick my ASS within 15 minutes of taking them I could pass out standing up. That's not horrible when I take the one before bed...but the morning one is a problem since I wake up and then have to fight the drowsiness. I also have a new problem I'm really dizzy all the time I told my Dr about it and he though maybe it was because of my infection, but nope I'm still super dizzy when I stand, walk, sit, lay down etc *sigh* which means I'm gonna need blood work done up Saturday *sigh* I need a new body...don't you wish you could just order one out of a magazine? I mean I'll take one that looks just like mine I'm not asking for an upgrade looks wise but health related issues wise yes please lol
I get to go to Dinner with Kelly tonight :D So I have something new to look forward to and it's going to be just me and her like it used to be when we started suitemate night :) even though this isn't suitemate night...lol So I need to go get in the shower and get ready :)

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